A Meeting Meant for ME!!!

Today was a special Sunday at church. The woman all attended a Christmas conference while the men-folk took over all church and children responsibilities. We were served a delicious brunch of quiche and girly salads, and then we were given an extra helping of inspiration from 5 lovely and talented speakers. My words about the event could never adequately portray the amazingness of it or the spirit that spoke straight to my heart. The whole thing was beautiful and maybe the best Christmas gift I've ever received.

When it was finished my mom leaned over and said, "Wow, Heavenly Father really loves you because that meeting was meant just for you." And I knew she was right. I knew it so much, in fact, that I kind of wanted to dig a deep, fat hole and hide from everyone (because I was sure that everyone in the room also knew that the whole meeting was just for me). Maybe I'm being kind of prideful, but I think I'm being honest.

I left with a lot of still-very-unanswered questions, but I also left feeling like Heavenly Father was ok with that. And maybe I feel a little more ok with that. He doesn't expect me to know the why's right now, or maybe ever, and I don't think He wants that to be my focus. He understands that I feel hurt and that I feel guilt and that I feel responsible for everything and I think He wants me to just keep moving along, relying on His Son all the while. And I'm going to try to rely on Him more.

So maybe the woman's meeting at church today was meant for many different woman in the congregation, but I'm going to stick to my guns and say it was meant just for me ;) And you have no idea how grateful I feel.

"Gratitude unlocks the fullness of life. It turns what we have into enough, and more. It turns denial into acceptance, chaos into order, and confusion into clarity...It turns problems into gifts, failures into successes, the unexpected into perfect timing, and mistakes into important events. Gratitude makes sense of our past, brings peace for today, and creates a vision for tomorrow."
--Melodie Beattie

 

 Speaking of being grateful? These two top my gratitude list! I am a mother to the most creative, hilarious, thoughtful, caring and spicy little boys I know. They are the best and I am so blessed.