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Monday, June 10, 2013

I'm Due

Posted on 5:03 PM by paritory
I had planned to hold you this week.
To caress your round cheeks and let you hold my chubby pointer, swollen from delivery.
I planned to name you something handsome, to wrap you in that same blue blanket,
and to desperately love you.
I knew what we were up against. I knew you had a special body. I knew you had a broken heart. 
But I had planned on holding you, even just for a minute, and I was so looking forward to it.
 
I can imagine Talmage's face, beaming with pride.
I can almost see Everett, full of love and some concern over his sudden big boy status.
I can guarantee that James' face would be ecstatic in a room with 3 boys that he helped create.
But I can't see my face.
What would it have shown? How would I be feeling? How am I feeling now?
This week I am searching for my feelings. Yes, I want to see my face.
This week. The week I am due.
 
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